There is something urgent and irascible that is flowing inside my mind,that i need to address immediately, but I just cant remember,and this is happening quite frequently lately. I wish to channelize all those commotions and emotions in my subsequent posts.
I was supposedly born to be a Tennis player, my dad who is also a Tennis coach named me after, the great Jimmy Connors, and I actually thank him for it, because otherwise I would have got some Mallu names, biju,byju,raju,shailaju,shaju, yes, the list goes on and on, and for the record, i sympathize with the guys having those names, because that is an instant turn off and a great impediment to ask a girl out.
I started playing Tennis since that time I started wearing an underwear, or is it the otherway, I dont remember, I started @ the age of 4(I guess i did'nt wear one, that day), that was an age and time, when there were no aspirations and pressure to perform, it was just a fun activity meant to go out of my home,little did I realise that it was the highway towards one of the most excruciating phase of my life.
I started playing tournaments, slowly, and I was regarded as the next big thing back then, was ranked no.2 or something in my state in Under 10-12, I vividly remember, the first lose i came across, was in front of a guy named Suraj Desai in State final, who inturn went on to become a national Gold medalist in times to come, he won his first tournament against me, apparantly.Everyone appreciated my talent and honestly thought, that I would go on to be a great player, at least nationally.
Cut-to-the-chase, I never realised any of my dreams or my real potential and had to settle being a University Champion,with reasons ranging from injuries to my habbit of screwing it up, when it matterd the most. Yes, I really screwd up, I just could'nt take it or grab it, I sincerly wish, I did, cause there were many who would have wished to trade in with my shoes and have the oppurtunities that, I had to excel. Yeah, fuck Jim!!
Anyway here i am, sitting here today, studing permutation-combination, probablity,trignometry and God knows what and preparing for CAT(Common Admission Test).
The reason i wrote this piece is, my dad is in Goa right now, attending the All-India-Coaches-workshop and I got a call from him saying that, many coaches, all over from India, whom I have met, or played under, were inquiring, how is my game and where have I reached, its amazing,because even after so many years, they remember me and they thought, I would be playing somewhere right now, which makes me wonder whether I should have really given up, on my first girl friend 'Tennis'
The simple,moral, from this piece,that you can take before sleeping tonight is, sometimes you just need to keep pushing and pushing and try to stick a little harder to things, which you have given your heart and soul to, it may be your project, assignments, relationships, work, or for that matter 'life' in itself, who knows, your one more single second of hanging in, would change your fucking life forever, and for good.
Hang on folks, and dream onn.Would quote a verse from Guns n Roses' song Pateince before ending this post
'Sad woman take it slow
It'll work itself out fine
All we need is just a little patience
Sad sugar take it slow
And we'll come together fineAll we need is just a little patience'
Signing out,
Jim 'ordinary' Jacob. :)
I was supposedly born to be a Tennis player, my dad who is also a Tennis coach named me after, the great Jimmy Connors, and I actually thank him for it, because otherwise I would have got some Mallu names, biju,byju,raju,shailaju,shaju, yes, the list goes on and on, and for the record, i sympathize with the guys having those names, because that is an instant turn off and a great impediment to ask a girl out.
I started playing Tennis since that time I started wearing an underwear, or is it the otherway, I dont remember, I started @ the age of 4(I guess i did'nt wear one, that day), that was an age and time, when there were no aspirations and pressure to perform, it was just a fun activity meant to go out of my home,little did I realise that it was the highway towards one of the most excruciating phase of my life.
I started playing tournaments, slowly, and I was regarded as the next big thing back then, was ranked no.2 or something in my state in Under 10-12, I vividly remember, the first lose i came across, was in front of a guy named Suraj Desai in State final, who inturn went on to become a national Gold medalist in times to come, he won his first tournament against me, apparantly.Everyone appreciated my talent and honestly thought, that I would go on to be a great player, at least nationally.
Cut-to-the-chase, I never realised any of my dreams or my real potential and had to settle being a University Champion,with reasons ranging from injuries to my habbit of screwing it up, when it matterd the most. Yes, I really screwd up, I just could'nt take it or grab it, I sincerly wish, I did, cause there were many who would have wished to trade in with my shoes and have the oppurtunities that, I had to excel. Yeah, fuck Jim!!
Anyway here i am, sitting here today, studing permutation-combination, probablity,trignometry and God knows what and preparing for CAT(Common Admission Test).
The reason i wrote this piece is, my dad is in Goa right now, attending the All-India-Coaches-workshop and I got a call from him saying that, many coaches, all over from India, whom I have met, or played under, were inquiring, how is my game and where have I reached, its amazing,because even after so many years, they remember me and they thought, I would be playing somewhere right now, which makes me wonder whether I should have really given up, on my first girl friend 'Tennis'
The simple,moral, from this piece,that you can take before sleeping tonight is, sometimes you just need to keep pushing and pushing and try to stick a little harder to things, which you have given your heart and soul to, it may be your project, assignments, relationships, work, or for that matter 'life' in itself, who knows, your one more single second of hanging in, would change your fucking life forever, and for good.
Hang on folks, and dream onn.Would quote a verse from Guns n Roses' song Pateince before ending this post
'Sad woman take it slow
It'll work itself out fine
All we need is just a little patience
Sad sugar take it slow
And we'll come together fineAll we need is just a little patience'
Signing out,
Jim 'ordinary' Jacob. :)
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